Dear Blog…
Hello blog. This is one of the moments when I can say that you have been a great medium for me to release my emotions. I wouldn’t know what to do with this heavy feeling weighing down inside me without you there. I am helpless. I don’t know how to get rid of the pain. Over-the-counter meds help me sleep, but the pain doesn’t go away. When I wake up in the morning, the pain is still there. Why do I have to go through this? I remember my mother’s touch always helped to relieve pain. No matter how sick I was, when she rubs my back - I will feel a lot better. My mom must be looking down from heaven wishing she could do just that to take away my pain. I guess God told her that I have to feel this pain. This is meant to teach me something.
To take away the pain, last night I was reminiscing about our happy times. We had so much happy times together. Like that one time when we laughed so hard watching Imelda go crazy in her documentary. When she started scrolling down crap on twenty pieces of paper explaining the connection of love and computers, we almost died.
I also remembered our trip to Italy. We walked so much and we were exhausted. Every night, we would go to a local restaurant and order a bottle of house wine, dine and take whatever local dish there is and just talk. The whole trip was beautiful. We didn’t even fight once! Maybe that was an indicator that something was wrong. Normal people fight - we don’t.
But you know what blog? I will always remember the good times. I will not let anyone take that away from me. I don’t hate him. I don’t even think it’s his fault. Our love just ran its course and it’s time to move on. He has been a great lover, and a great friend. So, if he’s reading this - I hope that he understands that I still love him and whatever he choses to do in the future, I will support him. Our paths aren’t threading the same direction. Maybe eight years apart in age makes a difference too. I don’t know. I always thought we’d be together.
Just for him, I have included my song for any friend of mine that has gone away. I played this song for Rob when he went away to the seminary. I played this song for Juan when he moved to California. Everyone has to open a new chapter in their lives. Nothing stays the same. He must be in desperate need for a new chapter in his life and if it means not having me in that chapter, so be it. I just want him to remember these words…
But I’ll keep you close as always…it won’t even seem you’ve gone… cause our hearts, in big and small ways - will keep the love that keeps us strong… though it’s had to let you go, in the Father’s hands we know that a lifetime’s not too long… to live as friends….
Thanks blog! Thanks for your endless patience in listening to me gripe about life. Thanks for cheering me on when things are going well. You have kept me strong. And through you, I have met all these wonderful people that keeps me going… many thanks to all of you out there as well. You all mean so much to me!
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3 Responses to “Dear Blog…”
By SpeakOutYourAFlip on Aug 15, 2007 | Reply
This is for you Chuva,
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By SpeakOutYourAFlip on Aug 15, 2007 | Reply
Sorry It did not work
here’s the link!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8FR0SBQd4X4
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By SpeakOutYourAFlip on Aug 15, 2007 | Reply
Here’s Another one Chuva,
When you’ve reach the bottom, there’s no other way but to go up…. and every step of the way; We, your friends will be with you…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSj0k2m1tD4
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