If we didn’t break up…
Funny how life goes isn’t it? You work, you play and then you get used to being alone for a very long time. You go through hurried relationships that you thought would be it but always end up fruitless in the end. Then one day, at the most unexpected moment – you meet him. Yes, it was very unexpected when I fell in love. All of a sudden, you become a couple and it is no longer me, me, me. You have to think of somebody else. You learn to sacrifice things to give way to the new being that is in your life. You try to compromise. You learn to do things you didn’t even think of doing while you were alone.
Holidays are most special because that is the time that you think of what would make him happy. You are no longer occupied with stuff you will get for yourself, but wonder about gifts for him that would surprise him. That look on his face when he opens up your Christmas presents, and knowing that he understands how much he means to you. Those were the moments you cherish.
This holiday, I wouldn’t have to think about gifts for him because we are no longer together. I always enjoyed getting him stuff because it is one way of letting him know how much you cared. It’s not THE ONLY WAY, but it is a way. He loved giving me gifts as well. He gave me the best gifts. I am not a materialistic type of person but to know that he would go that far to get you something just because… is very touching.
I can’t still let go right now. I feel the weight inside me still. It’s only been a little over a month but I’m still unsettled. I can only count on my best friend, TIME. I need time to recover but I don’t want to forget. We had good times… NO, we had great times together. But I guess, it wasn’t worth keeping for him.
