The Very First Time…
The Very First Time (2002 Digital Remaster) – Michael Johnson
Many of my readers here get a glimpse of my personal life once in a while. I do post personal entries here in between the crazy gossip and scandal world of celebrities. I know, I know. I should really post more often (para sa mga stalkers ko!! haha).
At times, I just simply can’t find the time to sit down and think. Many of you know me personally by now and some – through a twist of fate, have been led to my blog simply because you are looking for “KC Concepcion” or “Pinay Scandals”… well.. you will find the former here… very rare will you find the latter.
Chuva was in a relationship until July of last year. I was together with my boyfriend for four years. It was really good while it lasted. I’ve celebrated my being single for a year now and I have no complaints. It’s what I wanted. It’s the only thing I can really afford because I live such a hectic life. You all know I’m still going to school, I have a full time job, I have a dog named “Jake”, and I maintain six blogs. It’s not an easy feat if you ask me. Kulang na lang, tumalon ako sa building para matapos na ang lahat. Joke joke!!!
I’ve talked about JOSHKO, I’ve touched on Normand, Oboids, Frondizi, and many other crushes I have had within the past year. All of them are bloggers except JOSHKO. You all know JOSHKO – he’s my personal trainer. After a few missed opportunities, I realized now that it’s all over sa front na yon. I have moved on.. and luckily, it only takes me two days para maget-over ang mga infatuations ko. A lot of times, puro flirting lang talaga and there’s really nothing serious about it.
Most recently lang.. may nakilala ko sa blogosphere (not going to say who). It started with the innocent chats and emails, IMs via YM. Mga joke joke lang… Ang ganda nito, nakangisi siguro ng hanggang tenga itong katulong ko dahil ako pa – laging nag-iisip ng praktikal. I always try to be realistic and falling for someone from a distance usually doesn’t take hold. Iba talaga yung kaharap mo ang ginugusto mo. Hindi ko alam kung karma ‘to or what pero I’ve always said – hindi na ‘ko naniniwala sa true love. Been there – - done that. It just isn’t there. Hindi totoo ang mga fairy tales dahil kung totoo yon, ang labas, mas maganda ‘ko kay Cinderella, mas maganda boses ko kay Ariel at mas payat ako kay Dumbo. But we all know how it feels kapag may nagugustuhan ka diba? Medyo iba ang gising mo sa umaga. Para kang natulog ng may hanger ka sa bibig. Lagi kang nakangising parang asong ulol…. that’s something di ba? Minsan, nakatunganga ka sa bintana ng wala ka namang tinitignan… or nakakarinig ka ng kanta (iniisip mo na kagad yung future ninyong dalawa)… ano ba?!!!
Well, kahit na pinagdaanan na natin at hindi naman inaasahan – we know when that feeling comes diba? Alam mong may nangyayaring hindi mo tinuro sa puso mo. But it’s the very first stage pa lang. Wala pa nga sa ligawan dahil di ko alam kung ako ang manliligaw o ako ang liligawan.. anovey?
Like I said, alam mo na yung feeling diba? It’s there but you can’t figure out if it’s real? Should you – should you not? Gusto mo ba? Ayaw mo? All these things come into play. Ang ganda lang nito, I realized that I am still capable. Capable of experiencing that special something inside. Nakakatuwa lang.
There’s nothing going on here…. nag-fi-feeling lang ako ‘no? Kaya pabayaan ninyo na ko. Emote-emote lang for now. I’m not saying I’m in love. Ang feeling ko lang, parang may mga paro-paro sa loob ng tiyan ko… naglalaro, nangingiliti. But that’s about it. Kaya mag-abang lang kayo.. iba-blog ko na lang ang progress. It feels like I’m falling again – - for the very first time. NAKS!!!!!!!!!!!! OO NO? MAY PUSO RIN AKO!!!
Back to the regular “celebrity” program…
