What constitutes a bad day for you? Is burning your toast for breakfast make a bad day? Spilling coffee on your dress shirt while on your way to work? How about getting yelled at by your boss for being late?
We all have bad days and I swear, today was one of my bad days. It’s not even the reason anymore that matters at this point that made today a bad one for me. I just feel sad because I seem to have wasted today feeling depressed and carrying this heavy feeling in my chest. I didn’t choose it. It’s just there. No one should feel this way but that’s how I feel today. I feel the need to escape it and go somewhere far away and hide. But, can I hide from it? Can I run away from it? No. I all have to face whatever it is head on and realize that there are others out there who have it worse than I do.
Usually, they say that when you’re feeling depressed, write your feelings down on paper. Make it your outlet. You will find out that writing your emotions down do help. I want this weight in my chest to go away so I am going to try something. I’m going to list some of the things that I should be grateful for. A list that should help me realize how blessed I am. It is good for us to visualize what we have yet take for granted.
1. I am grateful that I am alive.
2. I am grateful that I have all my senses.
3. I am grateful that I have a roof over my head and a bed to lay my head when I need to rest.
4. I am grateful that I am not suffering from hunger. I can eat whatever I want to eat.
5. I am grateful that I have a job.
6. I am grateful that I am healthy overall.
7. I am grateful that my family is healthy and safe.
8. I am grateful that I have wonderful friends who care for me.
9. I am grateful that I can appreciate music.
10. I am grateful that I am able to share my blessings with others.
I can go on and on. I have so much to be thankful for. What’s crazy about this exercise is that I am feeling better already. There are other things around me that make me happy like the sound of crickets, the beauty of the changing colors of the leaves in autumn. These are simple things that make me appreciate life and that no matter how heavy one must feel at times, I can still say that life is beautiful. Just like the quote above say, I may have had a bad day, but it’s not a bad life.
I am also grateful that I will be visiting Manila in January. I am going to join my college classmates for a reunion and then travel to Davao for some rest and relaxation. During the time that I am in Manila, Pope Francis will be there on a pastoral visit as well. Life is really not all that bad.